Progress
Posted by JBSil on February 26th, 2007
10 lbs and counting. Although no visible change yet, it still feels like progress. *check*
Class starts 2 weeks from today. I thought they started on the 17th, but was informed by the lovely Maureen that the 17th is a Saturday, so I checked the schedule again and it’s actually the 12th. I’ve decided to take one class this quarter and one over the summer (accelerated 5 week session) for a multitude of reasons. Mostly because it will make my scheduling a hell of a lot easier, and make my boss happier, and probably be easier for me to actually keep attending the classes this time through. Here’s hoping.
Point being, I really am going back to school to finally finish. It’s actually starting to set in, now that it’s only 2 weeks away. Definite progress there. *check* Just got off the phone with the Financial Aid office, getting rid of the loan I worked so hard to get since I’m not eligible for it if I’m only taking 1 class. That’s taken care of. *check* Already transfered money out of savings into my bank so I can pay for the one class directly. That money will be reimbursed (back into savings) by my job. Saweeet. Still need to send over the pre-approval forms to HR. Will get that done today. *check*
I haven’t thought about she who must not be named basically at all, unless she was brought up to me, or something distinctly reminded me of her. Except to write this paragraph. 
It’s been .. a number of weeks this way. It, overall, feels better to not think about her. Don’t get me wrong, I still miss her when I do think about her. But, in general, I’m feeling a much more generic loneliness, as opposed to specifically missing her. *check* It’s also gotten to the point where what we had, while great, is clearly gone, and will never be again. I know that I have to find something else, with someone new. A large part of me wants to rush out and find someone right away, but that’s just the loneliness talking. I know that I need some time to work on myself. In so many aspects of my life, I’m not where I want to be, and I’m not happy about it. I know that I can’t find true happiness with someone else until I can be happy with myself. *open box* My therapist thought that was supposed to be his line, but I beat him to it.
That’s all for now. Much much more(for most of you) after lunch.